Hey! One more week and we get to go back to school. Sorry if thats a damper on your mood, but Im actually kind of looking forward to going back to school because I like my own little space in my apartment routines and goc and everything else. Sounds kind of weird I guess, but what I realized is I kind of thrive on this routine and the organization and clarity it brings to my head. But I will confess sin to you and say that it has been hard this week doing my devotions, even in fact reading my Bible. I read this morning, but I cant really remember before that when I did my devos in the morning before today. I wish I could tell you that Im dealing with it and that I have completely repented and moved on, but I cant. All I can tell you is my sin is getting in the way of reading my Bible. I am enjoying my rest and sleep to the glory of God so much so that I wake up only in time to do what I need to do for the day. And its only those days where I find that I dont have anything planned that I sit down and study the Word of God.

How can the Lord of Lord and King of Kings be subjected to such a relationship with me? Why would He want such a sinner who doesnt keep up her relationship with Him the moment she finds more freedom in her schedule and doesnt delight in the Word because it is the Word and abounding with the characteristics of our Savior? I want to be honest with you guys and say that I am struggling with things that it sounds like you are struggling with too.

I read something the other day about our knowledge. It was by a seminary professor who said that some of his students got annoyed at him because he frankly didnt care about how much facts and history and greek and hebrew they knew about the Bible. But he wanted them to show him how that affected their lives. What good is it if I know the missions routes that Paul went on and the dates that he stayed and ministered to those people if I dont understand Pauls heart for the Lord and how He genuinely desired to bring the gospel to the nations and to see people love Christ? And all I can say is that I want to go back to school so that I can get back on the right track again. Thats a poor excuse for the bigger heart issue of me shoving God into some corner of my life thinking that I need certain circumstances and settings to really serve and study for Him and about Him. Oh God would you be magnified even in my sin.